Training (demi)

She's always there in my corner her eyes are always watching me. When I turn and look at her she smiles at me nervously. She hates boxing well she hates me doing it, she always makes sure that I see her always in my perifials. Whether I am jump roping I can always see her, shadow boxing it's the same, yet even when its sparring shes in my line of sight. Which I can say sparring is rough ducking jabbing hitting and keeping my distance. My trainer hates it when I stand my ground and try to brawl it out he gets mad at me constantly screaming "you have long arms keep your distance with them" it's not like I dont try to it's just sometimes we get to close I mean i still have enough power in my punches, but I get his point. I remember him shouting "you Americans and your always trying to street fight". Which didnt annoy me but he did have a point about that.

I like sparring more then anything else I mean shadow boxing is fun but I want to know if what I am doing will work.

But the whole gym knows her name and when they see her they know I am there. She bites her lip and taps her leg when she sees me in the ring. I dont let her nervousness get to me. In fact I keep my head up tall and my defenses high so she can see that I know what I am doing and she doesnt have to worry.

Yet she does. I get to the gym first, though she tries to beat me there but the few times she does and when she does she always wraps my hands I dont like it when she does it yet she always does it. When she does I stay very still because I know she is trying her hardest I smile when she finishes and start to train. She always asks me for a kiss, and I always do. She sits close to me when i am doing my stretches, sometimes it bugs me, yet I let her do it because I know this is what she likes.

My training is never easy 90 percent of the time is me spent being yelled at by the trainer "stop biting your mouth piece" "keep your guard up" "your fight is in less then a week cut more weight" "keep your guard up" "dont drink the water use it for rinsing" "snap your jab more" "stay focus" "watch your footwork". Its exhausting, he does praise me but there is always something I can do better.

Yet she doesnt say much, when i change to do my roadwork she always hugs me from behind and says something in cute in japanese, "dont keep me waiting" "hurry back" "I'll miss you". Things that keep me motivated, during my running my mind is blank and all I can hear is the music in my ear "sex" by Eden. When I return to the gym she brings me water though I never ask she brings me water. I feel bad when she does this it's like she is treating us like a anime which is cute yet I feel bad about. It's like she thinks I'm going to leave her behind and forget about her. She knows that all I can do is the amateur circuit I cant go pro that's way to much on the body.

Yet she supports me and always does this. She'll carry my bag home despite me always fighting her for it, and when we get back to the house I do light exercises which she hates because she thinks I'm going overboard. So I explained to her my next fighter isn't a joke he looks like he can hit pretty hard so I need to be able to withstand his hits and come back. She argues with me that I should stick to graphic design, I told I will when I retire. Those words are always repeated, she fears for me and yet I tell her the truth. I go to the gym everyday after work, and on my days off, she'll always accompanying me no matter what, and is always nervous about me getting hurt, I tell her to go out with her friends and enjoy the downtime from basketball yet she'd rather sit in the gym watching me train for Saturdays fight.

Fighting in japan (round1)

Sorry I have been dealing with depression and panic attacks to write about my first boxing match but since everyone was asking about the photos I got up and wrote about the fight.

I took up boxing and wanted to do the amatuer circuit to fill in this ever lasting void in me. I went through the test and passed so then it was getting more and more back in shape.

We got a offer for a quick fight in like a month no one in my gym wanted it, so I argued for it. My trainer was like no I argued with him for the experience not for the win, he told me to cut weight I told him I got it. Yea I didnt so much I had to argue with demi about eating I missed out on food. And a lot of stuff.

Let's say a boxing training isn't easy not at all I trained for a month got to the weigh in passed it then came the night of the fight.

I have never missed food so much and water and tea in my life. But I did it. Moving on.

I was given strict orders by my trainers all of them no sex, nothing that will mess up my stamina, and no working out. I told demi this and even slept in the living room just to fight temptations, but every morning I found her cuddled up next me. I spoke to her about it like 50 times I kinda dont want to lose but I know I wont win. I dont want to be knocked out. But the night before the fight she was wound up like real bad and as I was watching tv she was scratching at me and kissing my neck I told her after the fight. She was pouting about it, I told her 9 times no no no. Until she asked me for oral sex so I gave in and was like yea that I will do. 5 hours later shes happy I'm exhausted.

I left hella early in the morning and stayed at the gym, so I didnt eat breakfast or drink anything. I stayed there up till we left.

Demi and the gang met me at the venue which was some kind of gym thing. Demi was in the waiting room with me the whole time and didnt leave my side. I was like ok. I warmed up and then came my time as my trainer. (Mr. Misaki) was wrapping my hands I'm telling jokes and feeling relaxed I had everyone laughing demi kept squeezing my hand and telling me about her. When my trainer wrapped my other hand she squeezed and scratched my arm. Hell she was more nervous then I was.

On the way to ring my heart pounded and i felt wound up, the void in me felt like it was growing. When I got to the ring and set foot into it my opponent looked bigger then me same height just more muscle I thought. We went over the rules with the ref, we walked back to our corners and i was told to just test it out and be calm if things got bad he'll throw the towel it's about experience and not about winning or losing.

The first round was hard getting punched by someone else with no head gear hurts, but I did fight back I landed jabs, and kept my defense up not gonna lie I lost the first round.

My corner praised me and gave me instruction if I can throw then throw my 1 and 2 get into my rhythm. I drifted off and looked into the crowd I could see demi looking at me biting her lip, I knew she was nervous.

The 2nd round was all me not gonna lie i took that round i got hit with a hard right which swelled up my eye that I remember it didnt get bad till the end of the fight. But I was in the fight then out landing and dodging. I never felt so empowered before landing 1s and 2s. Making combos all of this done in three minutes.

I was so tired after that round but I kept at it my trainer told me to try and hurt him see if I can put him on the canvas then told me not to do that or I'll be the one

Round three was all me again I did things that I did years ago when I was just in training landing uppercut combos. He did give me a bloody nose but I picked up the speed having him on the ropes pushing him to the corner I was my way with him.

They stuck q tips up my nose and let me tell you this that shit ain't cool it hurt and burns. I looked over into the crowd and saw demi waving at me. I know she was scared hell I was too I didnt want a broken nose I had a bump under my eye but come on not a broken nose.

Round four was our last round in this tango. He came at me with power I...dont know what i was doing he hit me and it hurt. But you know what I didnt let it stop me so I sent a hook, he swung I swung back i dipped and ducked he kept getting hit. This went on for hell idk what felt like forever until I got him with a body shot then a nice one to combo and a sloppy uppercut to the nose and then bam he went down.

That's when I was nervous if he gets up I'm done cause 1 was tired 2 I was exhausted 3 hes gonna be pissed.

But luck that night was on my side he couldn't beat the count. I was happy as hell, I heard my friends screaming really loud.

That night I got looked at by the doctor who was like I'm good to go I'm gonna have a headache and some pain I was like ok.

I COULDNT FUCKING SLEEP !!!!!! Demi kept waking me every 3 hours to make sure I didnt slip away into death. I told her I would embrace it if it meant I could sleep. At one point I didnt wake up I played dead and she got the whole house stirred up because I was not getting up at one point takeshi shook me and I gave in i just wanted sleep.

If you guys saw the pictures of me after the fight let me tell you I couldnt really are out my right eye I mean I felt blind, and eating yea right my mouth was cut up and I could only have liquid foods like soup. and cold tea. I hate cold drinks. My hands couldnt make a fist couldnt move well my head felt like it was crushed. My ribs hurt like hell like real bad.

Everyone else was worried about my injuries I was laughing and joking around with then about it saying stuff like. "But it didnt kill me yet" "if only he hit harder then i would be dead" "yea maybe this is it maybe I'm going to die now".

I had to wear glasses cause all forms of light hurt my head and eyes I couldnt take deep breaths because my ribs felt like they were broken like no joke.

Demi thought it was a problem since my eye and hands healed up and my mouth wasnt so bad but. She thought I could have broken rib and punctured lung.

After some time my ribs healed up and I was cleared to work out.

My next fight is gonna be soon.

Caring for them

I'm a complicated person, I don't like very many things, and I am goal oriented. I only like animals, and small children because I want to see what they will grow up yo be. But something I cherish the most comes in three people. But i am gocusing on two of them and they are: Katie and Sha, both people whole both have a piece of my heart. Why you wonder I'll explain;

Katie-ive known for years though she can be a headache and get on my nerves. I do love her and her never making sense ways, no relationship is perfect and I do want to marry her. She is still trying to find her way and I want to help her find her way. She's beautiful to me and I can't wait to spend my life with her. She's a caring person, and has a heart made of gold, she's super nice person, smart and I wouldn't trade her in for the world.

Sha- the Maldavian beauty, she is still a mystery to me in some ways. She's funny and quick with a meme, she thinks that she is awkward but aren't we all in some way. But I think she is perfect like Katie is. But honestly I want to know everything about her too.  I think she is beautiful and smart. She thinks so many bad thoughts but i don't see any of those when I speak to her. I too want to spend my life with her, to care for her and watch over her. She's such a wonderful woman and I love her just like Katie. Though she doesn't take me serious about being where she is and just hanging around but honestly I want want to have her in my life forever.

Both of them mean so much to me and I want to wake up and see both of their smiling faces, and spend the rest of my days loving them and caring for them. This is hopefully the start of a wonderful life.